THISTLEDOWN ...again !!

at last ..I have a dark tan baby again, originally uploaded by Sleeping Elf ...

Pete starts RadioTherapy next week
10 days worth ..every day doing a 2 hour round trip plus the hospital time
Im still working ..taking orders and working on new stock for my Etsy
but if you have e.mailed me ..it may be a few days before I can invoice you or get back to you
I know Im going to be majorly stressed out the next 10 days
were not sleeping too well right now
but I know its all going to come right in the end
Ive enjoyed myself today photographing the new bears ..Pete helped me with them too ..fastening off cotterpins ...my hands are still very weak ..and all the driving Im doing over the next 10 days and the sewing Im doing ...he dosnt want me to knacker them up
but its taken my mind off things a little ...

and ROMEO ..finished for a wonderful  £102.00 !

MacMillan Charity bear

romeo, originally uploaded by Sleeping Elf ..happy new year xx.

these past couple of weeks have dragged
Pete is looking really well ..but not knowing when he is going to have the treatment is killing me

Not sleeping too well ..and not resting
just wish we would get the letter

Tracey called yesterday and told us he Dr Zachariha has just got back from his holiday and Pete is first on the list ..we should know something by tommorow

at least sewing my bears is helping ..I always used to be creative when stressed ...

so this is Romeo ..it was going to be Mac ..but hey ..its February
and Im feeling a little low and nostalgic

Pete always did have the key to my heart ..so this is for him
my Romeo ..
looking forward to happier days xx

Precious

Precious, originally uploaded by Sleeping Elf ..happy new year xx.

she is weeny
..LOL Pete again ..when I made Milli ...he was ..like
can you make one smaller ..so I have

and I loved making her ...I think you can tell ..when you are enjoying something ..it shows

and these new bears ..Im loveing

Milli

Milli, originally uploaded by Sleeping Elf ..happy new year xx.

Milli finished at a wonderful £103.00

Im working on her brother now ..Mac
who will go up for auction February for MacMillan Cancer Support

this illness is relentless
since October when we first found out its gone from bad to worse

yesterday we found out he has a tumor on his brain

I cant even begin to organise my thoughts
treatment starts next week

Nothing at all has been posted this week and very few e.mails answered
Hospital every day
they have cut down on the heart tablets ..the side effects are lousy ..he is exhausted
but his heart has slowed down and no more palpitations

trouble is they make his head ache and he feels giddy and nauseous
and as he is on steroids for the head pain ...its like giving you something in one hand then taking it away

back to the Hospital again today
they have said he has to have weekly blood tests at our own Drs ..so hopefully the daily trips to hospital will stop

the weekend I will parcel everything up and ship it out Saturday , Monday and Tuesday xx

another bad couple of days

Im exhausted
and wonder how on earth I will get work done ..Pete had a pretty good recovery after  the head swelling thing

then another whammy yesterday .his heart
in the early hours he woke ..then woke me ..cut a long story short
I rushed him into hospital ..again
his heart is beating way to fast and has gone out of rhythm..its either the Chemo or an underlying heart defect that has just reared its head

Im floored ..just floored ..he hasnt bounced back at all from this and is still in bed
the Demons came to vistit me in the night and left me scarred and worried sick about the future

I cry a lot ..its like being a child again ..I want my husband back to normal ..I want our life back

then an old friend phoned me this morning
he gave me my fight back

"Carrie Attwood let something hurt her Pete ..its not gonna happen"
and he is right
Im going to bitch slap that cow back to were it came from


Im not letting C use up all my energy crying and worrying about what could happen

I have work to do ..a house to run and a bussiness to keep going

and more than anything I have to love and care for my husband ..who is the most wonderful person I have ever known 

and Im going to do it so Im not going to waist any more time blubbering today

today were at home 

tommorow all day hospital
everything I have read about Cancer ..to beat it is an up hill battle ..but its going to have to battle if it wants to take my Pete

Bracken

Bracken, originally uploaded by Sleeping Elf ..happy new year xx.

well I have finally managed to get them listed on Ebay
http://stores.ebay.com/thesleepingelf

£10.00 fro every sale will go to MacMillan Cancer Support
both Pete and I are thrilled with how Milli is going
and so far this week I have raised £40.00 from other sales too

Pete is much better today ..his head is still hurting ..and the med he is on is making him drowsy ..but a far cry from Thursday

3 of the other nodes on his body are shrinking ..so we are optimistic
thats its working

the scan next week will tell us if it is ..if it is ..they will put him on steroids untill the Chemo has done its work ..

but today ..its not a bad day for us at all xx

UPDATE

Pete was rushed into hospital yesterday 
he has been doing so amazingly well ...but this week he started feeling a bit fuzzy headed and had flu like symptoms 
which can happen on this drug he is on 
god it was terrible ...he was in agony ..scarred me shitless 


His doctor thinks the chemotherapy either bought on a mother of a migraine 
in which case it will be gone tommorow 
or the drug  is making the brain swell ..either that or the cancer has reached the brain 
after a whole day of agony ..steroids ..injections to stop him being sick ..by evening he was getting slightly better ..and had stopped being sick 
if its a migraine ..he will be Ok in 24hrs 
if its the Chemo drug ..on the steroids and anti-sickness drugs he will be better in 48 hrs 
if its on his brain ...he wont 


so we came home ..exhausted 


were booked in for a scan next week ... and the  results will be through quickly as his Chemo is on hold .he cant have it again untill they find out if has cancer  on his brain ..the chemo will be stopped and he will have radiotherapy 


 ..it has been a lousy 24hrs ..

Milli

Milli, originally uploaded by Sleeping Elf ..happy new year xx.

and here she is
I feel quite emotional about her ...she was a labour of love
for someone I love ..
without him ..I would have never have been who I am today
this was Pete`s brainchild ...and is for him xx

100% will go to MacMillan Cancer Support

http://cgi.ebay.co.uk/ws/eBayISAPI.dll?ViewItem&item=320638632897&ssPageName=STRK:MESELX:IT#ht_1810wt_1139

its cold outside !

photographing some of the new elves, originally uploaded by Sleeping Elf ..CHRISTMAS IS COMMING ...

so far today its not stopped snowing ..
the roads are appalling ...nothing is going nowhere
Were snuggled up in home ..log fire glowing and Yankie Candles burning
Christmas TV on ..kids are at friends ..and its lovely
going to make Pete some Vege - low fat low sugar mince pies LOL
I feel quite festive ..
The snow is falling thick and fast
and dont care as long as we can get to the hospital Monday for Petes second lot of Chemo .
.I have a 4x4 so we should be OK
looks like the only things moving today are the 4x4s

Im finishing this weeks wigs to go out Tuesday ...our post is diabolical right now ..and post has slowed right down
so I dont expect anything else to arrive before Christmas