so close to finishing her
just cant wait to get away for a few days
Pete is recovering slowly ..so very slowly ..sometimes I think I may loose my mind
this journey we are on is a nightmare ...I just dream of a happy ending
we are due to see the specialist tommorow to find out what treatment he is to ahve next and the last ct scans
part of me is terrified
he has 8 lesions or nodules on his body now ..lord knows whats going on in his lungs and I am scarred shitless :(
I am doing everything I can ,...research into diet and latest complimentary treatments , I spend hours reading about diet and cancers
the McMillan nurse from Birmingham gave Kat an amazing magazine to read ICON
its eye-opening ..there are things we can do to help ..that can be used along side the radiotherapy and conventional treatments
and the future of treatments ..
it kinda keeps me sane at least I feel I have some control over this too
latest inside the Moo
lola
Ive missed my little girl the past couple of weeks
when I havent been in the hospital with Pete ..Ive been up the vets with Chester
Chester may have a heart defect ..at the moment his heart is raceing way too fast and he has a heart murmur
so he is going to be refered to a specialist
Pete has been discharged from the hospital , his radiotherapy is finished ..we wont know if its worked for 4 weeks ..he has to have a 3 week break from treatment then back to Dr Grummit to see if the Chemo worked at all and sort out the rest of the tumours
either Chemotherapy or something else ..dont know what that is
Ive sent out a load of orders this week and I should be getting back to normal and catching up with backdated orders this week
tiny Romeo
I carried him about in my pocket all day last week
sewing up bits as and when I could so Pete wouldn't know I was making him
he is tiny ..and I love this size ...
every day this week when we go to hospital I sit and sew ..or knit
its been a long week ..and Im out of the house more than Im in
Ive not got around to posting anything ...but I am planning on parcelling up over the weekend so I can post Monday and Tuesday and Wednesday
I managed to make up quite a lot last weekend ..but just Havant got to get them out yet
Ive had 3 dolls arrive ...Hujoo ABS ted ..who is still bald , nude and face-less ..Customhouse SD chow who is still a box of bits
and Cherish doll ltd rick ..still nude and the same state as the others ..but it was a nice suprise
Pete is doing Ok ...so far so good ..no side effects ..nothing else nasty cropping up
and 3 of the first tumours on his body that came up have shrunk ..
so were hopeful once he starts his treatment again ..we can give this illness a run for its money !!
he is just exhausted ..he cant sleep ..steroids most likely
I wish I could just magic it away
but life isnt like that is it?
were planning the day again today ...1.30 appointment
so it takes about an hour to get there
parking is a nightmare ..so Im leaving at 12.15
fill up with fuel ..and off I go
now Im answereing the e.mails I have had come in
THISTLEDOWN ...again !!
10 days worth ..every day doing a 2 hour round trip plus the hospital time
Im still working ..taking orders and working on new stock for my Etsy
but if you have e.mailed me ..it may be a few days before I can invoice you or get back to you
I know Im going to be majorly stressed out the next 10 days
were not sleeping too well right now
but I know its all going to come right in the end
Ive enjoyed myself today photographing the new bears ..Pete helped me with them too ..fastening off cotterpins ...my hands are still very weak ..and all the driving Im doing over the next 10 days and the sewing Im doing ...he dosnt want me to knacker them up
but its taken my mind off things a little ...
and ROMEO ..finished for a wonderful £102.00 !
MacMillan Charity bear
these past couple of weeks have dragged
Pete is looking really well ..but not knowing when he is going to have the treatment is killing me
Not sleeping too well ..and not resting
just wish we would get the letter
Tracey called yesterday and told us he Dr Zachariha has just got back from his holiday and Pete is first on the list ..we should know something by tommorow
at least sewing my bears is helping ..I always used to be creative when stressed ...
so this is Romeo ..it was going to be Mac ..but hey ..its February
and Im feeling a little low and nostalgic
Pete always did have the key to my heart ..so this is for him
my Romeo ..
looking forward to happier days xx
Precious
..LOL Pete again ..when I made Milli ...he was ..like
can you make one smaller ..so I have
and I loved making her ...I think you can tell ..when you are enjoying something ..it shows
and these new bears ..Im loveing
Milli
Milli finished at a wonderful £103.00
Im working on her brother now ..Mac
who will go up for auction February for MacMillan Cancer Support
Hospital every day
they have cut down on the heart tablets ..the side effects are lousy ..he is exhausted
but his heart has slowed down and no more palpitations
trouble is they make his head ache and he feels giddy and nauseous
and as he is on steroids for the head pain ...its like giving you something in one hand then taking it away
back to the Hospital again today
they have said he has to have weekly blood tests at our own Drs ..so hopefully the daily trips to hospital will stop
the weekend I will parcel everything up and ship it out Saturday , Monday and Tuesday xx
another bad couple of days
and wonder how on earth I will get work done ..Pete had a pretty good recovery after the head swelling thing
then another whammy yesterday .his heart
in the early hours he woke ..then woke me ..cut a long story short
I rushed him into hospital ..again
his heart is beating way to fast and has gone out of rhythm..its either the Chemo or an underlying heart defect that has just reared its head
Im floored ..just floored ..he hasnt bounced back at all from this and is still in bed
the Demons came to vistit me in the night and left me scarred and worried sick about the future
I cry a lot ..its like being a child again ..I want my husband back to normal ..I want our life back
then an old friend phoned me this morning
he gave me my fight back
"Carrie Attwood let something hurt her Pete ..its not gonna happen"
and he is right
Im going to bitch slap that cow back to were it came from
Im not letting C use up all my energy crying and worrying about what could happen
everything I have read about Cancer ..to beat it is an up hill battle ..but its going to have to battle if it wants to take my Pete
Bracken
well I have finally managed to get them listed on Ebay
http://stores.ebay.com/thesleepingelf
£10.00 fro every sale will go to MacMillan Cancer Support
both Pete and I are thrilled with how Milli is going
and so far this week I have raised £40.00 from other sales too
Pete is much better today ..his head is still hurting ..and the med he is on is making him drowsy ..but a far cry from Thursday
3 of the other nodes on his body are shrinking ..so we are optimistic
thats its working
the scan next week will tell us if it is ..if it is ..they will put him on steroids untill the Chemo has done its work ..
but today ..its not a bad day for us at all xx
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