my dream girl

my dream girl, originally uploaded by sleepingelf.

thank you every one for the support
recent shop updates sold out in record time

I promise Im working on new stock ..MSD , more Blythe and lati yellow ..I think about 2 weeks for restock

orders are dyeing ..perming and drying now
should be shipped by the weekend
finger is much better and Im back on track again

custom orders being taken for August and SEPTEMBER NOW

new tat

new tat, originally uploaded by sleepingelf.

Rainbow of Stars

Rainbow of Stars, originally uploaded by sleepingelf.

at last its done ..

what a difference a week can make

I have opened my shop again and am now taking orders 
the back orders should be all out by next week ..and new orders July 


I have reduced some of the dolls right now on Etsy 
and I have some new bears for sale and Im selling off some of my own collection  



I have got used to Pete not being with me now ...I lost him a long time ago ..when he became so ill  ..and have got used to being on my own
but I will never get over how he died ...ever
that I will have to live with ..but I have no regrets ..everything was said that should have been said, and I did everything within my power to keep him well
now I will keep my last promise to him ...to live ...never forget him ..but I have to live ..and love ..and be happy ..and he made me promise
he didnt want me to be a wailing widow ...he wanted me to be.. me ...Im trying

They say everything happens for a reason ...be dammed if I can see why I lost Pete .. ...I dont believe in God ..but I do believe in Karma and the human spirit .. and  Fate , Destiny  and Lady Luck ..and they are leading me by the hand ..and I will follow

1 step forward ...2 steps back

I cant believe its been almost 2 months ...and still everyday throws up its challenges ... back orders are slowly going out ...much slower than I thought ..but I still spend most my days trying to sort out this hell that Im living in

Paperwork and even more paperwork ...wondering when I will feel anything like normal ..and not drowning all the time :(
I cant remember feeling anything other than sick to my stomach ....

bad week ..June started out bad

A Great Relationship Happens When Two People Who Truly Understand Each Other and Love Each Other for Who They Are Come Together and Create Something Stronger Than Either of Them Could Ever Be on Their Own

and that summed us up
  Im so grateful for what I had ...he made me a better person ..and gave me the strength to do what I have to do


the bag of wig orders that were supposed to be posted before Pete took ill have been posted ...Etsy sales that were to be posted are going now

slowly things are creeping back to normality  

Pete love of my life passed away 25th April 2011

Pete love of my life passed away 25th April 2011, originally uploaded by a difficult time.

mornings are worse
I have to face the day knowing he isnt going to be there ,
I made him a promise ..I get dressed throw on my make up and face the day without him
Im as brave as I can be ..and thats what he wanted ..but
God I miss him

For anyone who has been waiting for me to contact them
I am using Petes laptop
Pete  has been given days to live ..he is desperately poorly and in need of 24 hr care and I just cant leave him..I have been told again it will be soon
I cant even begin to say how I feel or what our family is  going through
all I can say its evil and cruel
I have a load of back orders and there is a bag somewere of wigs I just havent posted and Im not taking orders just yet
I cant even think about getting anything done ..but I can promis ..and I swear your orders will be sent as soon as I can ...I will also be taking orders again ...as soon as I have sorted my head out and got out all the back orders

Pete is seriously ill right now ...Im not on line much at all ..at the momment Im all over the place

Things are delayed being made and sent

I had a head come back to me today unclaimed CAROLINE MACANLISS
if you are out there ..your head came back
and I know but cant remember who wanted hands

Results come in today for the tests ..I have never been so scarred in my life

thank you everyone who as left messages , phoned and written
I havent answered many ..but believe me they are appreciated

the sun is shinning ...its a beautiful day ...but my heart is sinking I have a feeling its going to be one of the worse days of my life

back in hospital

3rd time since  February :(
but Pete is back in hospital .he wasnt too well since the finish of his radiotherapy
which we put down to the side effects ...but .we had to call the ambulance saturday
they are running more tests on Pete today
his pancreas is enlarged and very painful ..it can be several things ...including the obvious
he isnt allowed to eat and on morphine ...and in much less pain
..and they have taken him off steroids ..and hey ...much less pain :(

.if you are waiting for an answer to a PM , e,mail or Flikr Mail
bear with me ..I have a TON of orders waiting to go and very little time to get them out

e.mails I will get around too over the week

If your waiting for a CURLEY TOTS ..I just havent been able to curl them ...they are almost done ...but not yet
thank you for your patience at this very difficult time

My constant companion

My constant companion, originally uploaded by Sleeping Elf ..dreaming of holidays xx.

Lola is never too far away from me bless her
well its Thursday
Pete is still quite ill ..but we have been to the Hospital this week and the Drs
all of them have said ..its the Radiotherapy and Meds not the cancer making him ill
and at this stage he still has a fighting chance ...so that made us feel better
on a positive note ..although he is poorly
he is eating like a horse ..thats my man xx


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