have to admit ..I am running behind ...looking after a small doggy is taking up more of my time that I could have possibly imagined
whats going on in my life ..Carrie Attwood , SleepingElf ..the things I make and sell .Hobbies ..stuff I love
1 year this month
its been a year ago this month Pete was diagnosed with stage 4 Cancer ,
sometimes I feel I was trapped in a very very bad dream
Im makeing a new life ,new friends
and a couple special very old friends have come back into my life and changed it totally
Im coping ...and looking into the future with a lot less fear ...I miss him terribly ...but I know he is smileing at me and I know he is proud of how Im copeing
thistledownof many colours
I have had a few days off ..back refreshed and feeling mellow
catching up with e.mails and few late orders today ...back on track by tommorow xx
my dream girl
thank you every one for the support
recent shop updates sold out in record time
I promise Im working on new stock ..MSD , more Blythe and lati yellow ..I think about 2 weeks for restock
orders are dyeing ..perming and drying now
should be shipped by the weekend
finger is much better and Im back on track again
custom orders being taken for August and SEPTEMBER NOW
what a difference a week can make
the back orders should be all out by next week ..and new orders July
I have reduced some of the dolls right now on Etsy
and I have some new bears for sale and Im selling off some of my own collection
I have got used to Pete not being with me now ...I lost him a long time ago ..when he became so ill ..and have got used to being on my own
but I will never get over how he died ...ever
that I will have to live with ..but I have no regrets ..everything was said that should have been said, and I did everything within my power to keep him well
now I will keep my last promise to him ...to live ...never forget him ..but I have to live ..and love ..and be happy ..and he made me promise
he didnt want me to be a wailing widow ...he wanted me to be.. me ...Im trying
They say everything happens for a reason ...be dammed if I can see why I lost Pete .. ...I dont believe in God ..but I do believe in Karma and the human spirit .. and Fate , Destiny and Lady Luck ..and they are leading me by the hand ..and I will follow
1 step forward ...2 steps back
Paperwork and even more paperwork ...wondering when I will feel anything like normal ..and not drowning all the time :(
I cant remember feeling anything other than sick to my stomach ....
bad week ..June started out bad
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For anyone who has been waiting for me to contact them I am using Petes laptop Pete has been given days to live ..he is desperately poor...
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Pete love of my life passed away 25th April 2011 , originally uploaded by a difficult time . mornings are worse I have to face the day knowi...