Nothing at all has been posted this week and very few e.mails answered
Hospital every day
they have cut down on the heart tablets ..the side effects are lousy ..he is exhausted
but his heart has slowed down and no more palpitations
trouble is they make his head ache and he feels giddy and nauseous
and as he is on steroids for the head pain ...its like giving you something in one hand then taking it away
back to the Hospital again today
they have said he has to have weekly blood tests at our own Drs ..so hopefully the daily trips to hospital will stop
the weekend I will parcel everything up and ship it out Saturday , Monday and Tuesday xx
Thursday, January 13, 2011
Tuesday, January 11, 2011
another bad couple of days
Im exhausted
and wonder how on earth I will get work done ..Pete had a pretty good recovery after the head swelling thing
then another whammy yesterday .his heart
in the early hours he woke ..then woke me ..cut a long story short
I rushed him into hospital ..again
his heart is beating way to fast and has gone out of rhythm..its either the Chemo or an underlying heart defect that has just reared its head
Im floored ..just floored ..he hasnt bounced back at all from this and is still in bed
the Demons came to vistit me in the night and left me scarred and worried sick about the future
I cry a lot ..its like being a child again ..I want my husband back to normal ..I want our life back
then an old friend phoned me this morning
he gave me my fight back
"Carrie Attwood let something hurt her Pete ..its not gonna happen"
and he is right
Im going to bitch slap that cow back to were it came from
Im not letting C use up all my energy crying and worrying about what could happen
and wonder how on earth I will get work done ..Pete had a pretty good recovery after the head swelling thing
then another whammy yesterday .his heart
in the early hours he woke ..then woke me ..cut a long story short
I rushed him into hospital ..again
his heart is beating way to fast and has gone out of rhythm..its either the Chemo or an underlying heart defect that has just reared its head
Im floored ..just floored ..he hasnt bounced back at all from this and is still in bed
the Demons came to vistit me in the night and left me scarred and worried sick about the future
I cry a lot ..its like being a child again ..I want my husband back to normal ..I want our life back
then an old friend phoned me this morning
he gave me my fight back
"Carrie Attwood let something hurt her Pete ..its not gonna happen"
and he is right
Im going to bitch slap that cow back to were it came from
Im not letting C use up all my energy crying and worrying about what could happen
I have work to do ..a house to run and a bussiness to keep going
and more than anything I have to love and care for my husband ..who is the most wonderful person I have ever known
and Im going to do it so Im not going to waist any more time blubbering today
today were at home
tommorow all day hospital
everything I have read about Cancer ..to beat it is an up hill battle ..but its going to have to battle if it wants to take my Pete
everything I have read about Cancer ..to beat it is an up hill battle ..but its going to have to battle if it wants to take my Pete
Saturday, January 8, 2011
Bracken
well I have finally managed to get them listed on Ebay
http://stores.ebay.com/thesleepingelf
£10.00 fro every sale will go to MacMillan Cancer Support
both Pete and I are thrilled with how Milli is going
and so far this week I have raised £40.00 from other sales too
Pete is much better today ..his head is still hurting ..and the med he is on is making him drowsy ..but a far cry from Thursday
3 of the other nodes on his body are shrinking ..so we are optimistic
thats its working
the scan next week will tell us if it is ..if it is ..they will put him on steroids untill the Chemo has done its work ..
but today ..its not a bad day for us at all xx
Friday, January 7, 2011
UPDATE
Pete was rushed into hospital yesterday
he has been doing so amazingly well ...but this week he started feeling a bit fuzzy headed and had flu like symptoms
which can happen on this drug he is on
god it was terrible ...he was in agony ..scarred me shitless
His doctor thinks the chemotherapy either bought on a mother of a migraine
in which case it will be gone tommorow
or the drug is making the brain swell ..either that or the cancer has reached the brain
after a whole day of agony ..steroids ..injections to stop him being sick ..by evening he was getting slightly better ..and had stopped being sick
if its a migraine ..he will be Ok in 24hrs
if its the Chemo drug ..on the steroids and anti-sickness drugs he will be better in 48 hrs
if its on his brain ...he wont
so we came home ..exhausted
were booked in for a scan next week ... and the results will be through quickly as his Chemo is on hold .he cant have it again untill they find out if has cancer on his brain ..the chemo will be stopped and he will have radiotherapy
..it has been a lousy 24hrs ..
he has been doing so amazingly well ...but this week he started feeling a bit fuzzy headed and had flu like symptoms
which can happen on this drug he is on
god it was terrible ...he was in agony ..scarred me shitless
His doctor thinks the chemotherapy either bought on a mother of a migraine
in which case it will be gone tommorow
or the drug is making the brain swell ..either that or the cancer has reached the brain
after a whole day of agony ..steroids ..injections to stop him being sick ..by evening he was getting slightly better ..and had stopped being sick
if its a migraine ..he will be Ok in 24hrs
if its the Chemo drug ..on the steroids and anti-sickness drugs he will be better in 48 hrs
if its on his brain ...he wont
so we came home ..exhausted
were booked in for a scan next week ... and the results will be through quickly as his Chemo is on hold .he cant have it again untill they find out if has cancer on his brain ..the chemo will be stopped and he will have radiotherapy
..it has been a lousy 24hrs ..
Tuesday, January 4, 2011
Milli
and here she is
I feel quite emotional about her ...she was a labour of love
for someone I love ..
without him ..I would have never have been who I am today
this was Pete`s brainchild ...and is for him xx
100% will go to MacMillan Cancer Support
http://cgi.ebay.co.uk/ws/eBayISAPI.dll?ViewItem&item=320638632897&ssPageName=STRK:MESELX:IT#ht_1810wt_1139
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