Milli

Milli, originally uploaded by Sleeping Elf ..happy new year xx.

Milli finished at a wonderful £103.00

Im working on her brother now ..Mac
who will go up for auction February for MacMillan Cancer Support

this illness is relentless
since October when we first found out its gone from bad to worse

yesterday we found out he has a tumor on his brain

I cant even begin to organise my thoughts
treatment starts next week

Nothing at all has been posted this week and very few e.mails answered
Hospital every day
they have cut down on the heart tablets ..the side effects are lousy ..he is exhausted
but his heart has slowed down and no more palpitations

trouble is they make his head ache and he feels giddy and nauseous
and as he is on steroids for the head pain ...its like giving you something in one hand then taking it away

back to the Hospital again today
they have said he has to have weekly blood tests at our own Drs ..so hopefully the daily trips to hospital will stop

the weekend I will parcel everything up and ship it out Saturday , Monday and Tuesday xx

another bad couple of days

Im exhausted
and wonder how on earth I will get work done ..Pete had a pretty good recovery after  the head swelling thing

then another whammy yesterday .his heart
in the early hours he woke ..then woke me ..cut a long story short
I rushed him into hospital ..again
his heart is beating way to fast and has gone out of rhythm..its either the Chemo or an underlying heart defect that has just reared its head

Im floored ..just floored ..he hasnt bounced back at all from this and is still in bed
the Demons came to vistit me in the night and left me scarred and worried sick about the future

I cry a lot ..its like being a child again ..I want my husband back to normal ..I want our life back

then an old friend phoned me this morning
he gave me my fight back

"Carrie Attwood let something hurt her Pete ..its not gonna happen"
and he is right
Im going to bitch slap that cow back to were it came from


Im not letting C use up all my energy crying and worrying about what could happen

I have work to do ..a house to run and a bussiness to keep going

and more than anything I have to love and care for my husband ..who is the most wonderful person I have ever known 

and Im going to do it so Im not going to waist any more time blubbering today

today were at home 

tommorow all day hospital
everything I have read about Cancer ..to beat it is an up hill battle ..but its going to have to battle if it wants to take my Pete

Bracken

Bracken, originally uploaded by Sleeping Elf ..happy new year xx.

well I have finally managed to get them listed on Ebay
http://stores.ebay.com/thesleepingelf

£10.00 fro every sale will go to MacMillan Cancer Support
both Pete and I are thrilled with how Milli is going
and so far this week I have raised £40.00 from other sales too

Pete is much better today ..his head is still hurting ..and the med he is on is making him drowsy ..but a far cry from Thursday

3 of the other nodes on his body are shrinking ..so we are optimistic
thats its working

the scan next week will tell us if it is ..if it is ..they will put him on steroids untill the Chemo has done its work ..

but today ..its not a bad day for us at all xx