1 step forward ...2 steps back

I cant believe its been almost 2 months ...and still everyday throws up its challenges ... back orders are slowly going out ...much slower than I thought ..but I still spend most my days trying to sort out this hell that Im living in

Paperwork and even more paperwork ...wondering when I will feel anything like normal ..and not drowning all the time :(
I cant remember feeling anything other than sick to my stomach ....

bad week ..June started out bad

A Great Relationship Happens When Two People Who Truly Understand Each Other and Love Each Other for Who They Are Come Together and Create Something Stronger Than Either of Them Could Ever Be on Their Own

and that summed us up
  Im so grateful for what I had ...he made me a better person ..and gave me the strength to do what I have to do


the bag of wig orders that were supposed to be posted before Pete took ill have been posted ...Etsy sales that were to be posted are going now

slowly things are creeping back to normality  

Pete love of my life passed away 25th April 2011

Pete love of my life passed away 25th April 2011, originally uploaded by a difficult time.

mornings are worse
I have to face the day knowing he isnt going to be there ,
I made him a promise ..I get dressed throw on my make up and face the day without him
Im as brave as I can be ..and thats what he wanted ..but
God I miss him

For anyone who has been waiting for me to contact them
I am using Petes laptop
Pete  has been given days to live ..he is desperately poorly and in need of 24 hr care and I just cant leave him..I have been told again it will be soon
I cant even begin to say how I feel or what our family is  going through
all I can say its evil and cruel
I have a load of back orders and there is a bag somewere of wigs I just havent posted and Im not taking orders just yet
I cant even think about getting anything done ..but I can promis ..and I swear your orders will be sent as soon as I can ...I will also be taking orders again ...as soon as I have sorted my head out and got out all the back orders

Pete is seriously ill right now ...Im not on line much at all ..at the momment Im all over the place

Things are delayed being made and sent

I had a head come back to me today unclaimed CAROLINE MACANLISS
if you are out there ..your head came back
and I know but cant remember who wanted hands

Results come in today for the tests ..I have never been so scarred in my life

thank you everyone who as left messages , phoned and written
I havent answered many ..but believe me they are appreciated

the sun is shinning ...its a beautiful day ...but my heart is sinking I have a feeling its going to be one of the worse days of my life