Nothing at all has been posted this week and very few e.mails answered
Hospital every day
they have cut down on the heart tablets ..the side effects are lousy ..he is exhausted
but his heart has slowed down and no more palpitations
trouble is they make his head ache and he feels giddy and nauseous
and as he is on steroids for the head pain ...its like giving you something in one hand then taking it away
back to the Hospital again today
they have said he has to have weekly blood tests at our own Drs ..so hopefully the daily trips to hospital will stop
the weekend I will parcel everything up and ship it out Saturday , Monday and Tuesday xx
another bad couple of days
Im exhausted
and wonder how on earth I will get work done ..Pete had a pretty good recovery after the head swelling thing
then another whammy yesterday .his heart
in the early hours he woke ..then woke me ..cut a long story short
I rushed him into hospital ..again
his heart is beating way to fast and has gone out of rhythm..its either the Chemo or an underlying heart defect that has just reared its head
Im floored ..just floored ..he hasnt bounced back at all from this and is still in bed
the Demons came to vistit me in the night and left me scarred and worried sick about the future
I cry a lot ..its like being a child again ..I want my husband back to normal ..I want our life back
then an old friend phoned me this morning
he gave me my fight back
"Carrie Attwood let something hurt her Pete ..its not gonna happen"
and he is right
Im going to bitch slap that cow back to were it came from
Im not letting C use up all my energy crying and worrying about what could happen
and wonder how on earth I will get work done ..Pete had a pretty good recovery after the head swelling thing
then another whammy yesterday .his heart
in the early hours he woke ..then woke me ..cut a long story short
I rushed him into hospital ..again
his heart is beating way to fast and has gone out of rhythm..its either the Chemo or an underlying heart defect that has just reared its head
Im floored ..just floored ..he hasnt bounced back at all from this and is still in bed
the Demons came to vistit me in the night and left me scarred and worried sick about the future
I cry a lot ..its like being a child again ..I want my husband back to normal ..I want our life back
then an old friend phoned me this morning
he gave me my fight back
"Carrie Attwood let something hurt her Pete ..its not gonna happen"
and he is right
Im going to bitch slap that cow back to were it came from
Im not letting C use up all my energy crying and worrying about what could happen
I have work to do ..a house to run and a bussiness to keep going
and more than anything I have to love and care for my husband ..who is the most wonderful person I have ever known
and Im going to do it so Im not going to waist any more time blubbering today
today were at home
tommorow all day hospital
everything I have read about Cancer ..to beat it is an up hill battle ..but its going to have to battle if it wants to take my Pete
everything I have read about Cancer ..to beat it is an up hill battle ..but its going to have to battle if it wants to take my Pete
Bracken
well I have finally managed to get them listed on Ebay
http://stores.ebay.com/thesleepingelf
£10.00 fro every sale will go to MacMillan Cancer Support
both Pete and I are thrilled with how Milli is going
and so far this week I have raised £40.00 from other sales too
Pete is much better today ..his head is still hurting ..and the med he is on is making him drowsy ..but a far cry from Thursday
3 of the other nodes on his body are shrinking ..so we are optimistic
thats its working
the scan next week will tell us if it is ..if it is ..they will put him on steroids untill the Chemo has done its work ..
but today ..its not a bad day for us at all xx
UPDATE
Pete was rushed into hospital yesterday
he has been doing so amazingly well ...but this week he started feeling a bit fuzzy headed and had flu like symptoms
which can happen on this drug he is on
god it was terrible ...he was in agony ..scarred me shitless
His doctor thinks the chemotherapy either bought on a mother of a migraine
in which case it will be gone tommorow
or the drug is making the brain swell ..either that or the cancer has reached the brain
after a whole day of agony ..steroids ..injections to stop him being sick ..by evening he was getting slightly better ..and had stopped being sick
if its a migraine ..he will be Ok in 24hrs
if its the Chemo drug ..on the steroids and anti-sickness drugs he will be better in 48 hrs
if its on his brain ...he wont
so we came home ..exhausted
were booked in for a scan next week ... and the results will be through quickly as his Chemo is on hold .he cant have it again untill they find out if has cancer on his brain ..the chemo will be stopped and he will have radiotherapy
..it has been a lousy 24hrs ..
he has been doing so amazingly well ...but this week he started feeling a bit fuzzy headed and had flu like symptoms
which can happen on this drug he is on
god it was terrible ...he was in agony ..scarred me shitless
His doctor thinks the chemotherapy either bought on a mother of a migraine
in which case it will be gone tommorow
or the drug is making the brain swell ..either that or the cancer has reached the brain
after a whole day of agony ..steroids ..injections to stop him being sick ..by evening he was getting slightly better ..and had stopped being sick
if its a migraine ..he will be Ok in 24hrs
if its the Chemo drug ..on the steroids and anti-sickness drugs he will be better in 48 hrs
if its on his brain ...he wont
so we came home ..exhausted
were booked in for a scan next week ... and the results will be through quickly as his Chemo is on hold .he cant have it again untill they find out if has cancer on his brain ..the chemo will be stopped and he will have radiotherapy
..it has been a lousy 24hrs ..
Milli
and here she is
I feel quite emotional about her ...she was a labour of love
for someone I love ..
without him ..I would have never have been who I am today
this was Pete`s brainchild ...and is for him xx
100% will go to MacMillan Cancer Support
http://cgi.ebay.co.uk/ws/eBayISAPI.dll?ViewItem&item=320638632897&ssPageName=STRK:MESELX:IT#ht_1810wt_1139
its cold outside !
so far today its not stopped snowing ..
the roads are appalling ...nothing is going nowhere
Were snuggled up in home ..log fire glowing and Yankie Candles burning
Christmas TV on ..kids are at friends ..and its lovely
going to make Pete some Vege - low fat low sugar mince pies LOL
I feel quite festive ..
The snow is falling thick and fast
and dont care as long as we can get to the hospital Monday for Petes second lot of Chemo .
.I have a 4x4 so we should be OK
looks like the only things moving today are the 4x4s
Im finishing this weeks wigs to go out Tuesday ...our post is diabolical right now ..and post has slowed right down
so I dont expect anything else to arrive before Christmas
update
I cannot begin to write about what we are going through
I had no idea my world would fall apart like this ...
my most precious husband has advanced cancer and we and our family are devastated
..I am asking for help .were I can get it .my Daughter is helping me to get out orders and dolls paid for
this are our priority ..they have to be ...it is my job ..and I have to look after my family too
questions about future orders ...I promise I will get around to them ...but its taking me time
orders are coming in thick an fast from my site ..all will be dispatched by the Christmas deadline
any missing orders will be replaced
if you haven't received your order
E.MAIL ME YOUR FULL NAME ADDRESS AND WHAT YOU ORDERED
this will save time ..I can just send out a replacement
at this moment in time I spend most of my hours , hospital and with Pete
I have very little time for getting to my PC
thank you for all of the phone calls ,,,PMs and e.mails ..at the moment I cant get around to answering them all
We are hopefull and positive ..we will beat this evil illness that has taken over our life right now
light at the end of the tunnel
Pete has been away from me a week ...and its slaying me
Im exhausted I out of the house more times than Im in ...I havent got much done this week at all
but everyone who is waiting for an order now ..it will be shipped next week ..Pete is comming out of hospital tommorow and although he is still in bed ..I shall be working from home ...so I can look after him and get the wigs done and the dolls out
thank you everyone for bearing with me xx
Im exhausted I out of the house more times than Im in ...I havent got much done this week at all
but everyone who is waiting for an order now ..it will be shipped next week ..Pete is comming out of hospital tommorow and although he is still in bed ..I shall be working from home ...so I can look after him and get the wigs done and the dolls out
thank you everyone for bearing with me xx
away from the Pc
Im checking in for orders and e.mails
every couple of days
thank you everyone who is preying ..sending healing Vibes and wishing us well
it means so much to me ..to us ..thank you
especially Ragna ..she has kept me focused
and Jean ,she has been my rock
Pete is in Hospital ..the operation went well ..were hopeing now to get the results of the Cat scan
but he is well ..eating chocolate ..thats my Man ..and I love him for it
and he wants to get back hope to the Van ...
APRIL ..TOTNES ! we have it planned
every couple of days
thank you everyone who is preying ..sending healing Vibes and wishing us well
it means so much to me ..to us ..thank you
especially Ragna ..she has kept me focused
and Jean ,she has been my rock
Pete is in Hospital ..the operation went well ..were hopeing now to get the results of the Cat scan
but he is well ..eating chocolate ..thats my Man ..and I love him for it
and he wants to get back hope to the Van ...
APRIL ..TOTNES ! we have it planned
on the way...
all of the dolls were sent out Friday ..and I have all the addresses and wig orders printed off for next week ..those will go out by the end of this week
so if your waiting for a wig order ...next week
we have had 2 beautiful Autumn weekends ..Pete is healing well ..we can manage a short walk ...so we do
Im hoping we get one more ..beautiful day next Sunday ..although Pete has to phone
the Hospital Sunday to book his bed for Monday ..then he has to have his operation
1 more weekend this Autumn would be nice ..because he is going to be off his feet for 6-8 weeks
He has his pre-op Monday ...MRI Thursday ...then phone Sunday ..in Monday
I dont think Im going to be totally happy until its out of him and we get the results back from the Scan ...and we know what were up against
but every day we live it to its fullest ...we are dressing the house up next week for Halloween :)
Its not going to beat us !
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